How I’m Walking into My Purpose Using My Journal
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If anyone would have told me that I would spend 2019 starting from scratch, I wouldn’t believe it. Like many others, I had my entire life planned out in my early twenties and boy, let me tell you, it went COMPLETELY left. While I wouldn’t trade what I have for the world, I have felt myself yearning for more. 10 years ago, I had a mentor who told me specifically, “If you want to become a writer, you need to start a blog.” Ten years, that’s how long it has taken me to take her up on her advice. Why? Well, insecurity, fear, anxiety and depression to name a few. I have struggled most of my life with these mental health issues slowing depleting me of every ounce of drive, optimism, and confidence I once had. Those close to me likely didn’t even realize.
I grew up always feeling the need to look a certain way. Perfect, clean, innocent. I spent most of my life trying to hold on to that “image” I created. But after going through a whirlwind of events over the last two years, I started to wonder why I had gone on with this façade for so long. I pushed my opinions way deep down as to not offend, or worse, feel like they weren’t even valid. I shrunk myself around others as to not make them feel uncomfortable about my intellect. I stopped myself from pursuing promising career avenues because I thought I just wasn’t good enough. That is what happened to me in the 10 years it took for me to get into this space with you. Some may say it’s a little too late, but I like to think that I am right on time.
So, what brought me here you may ask? Well, I felt compelled to finally use my voice. State my opinions, tell my story, and just freely step into my purpose. My goal is to empower and help other women like me who have suffered in silence. Who faced the same internal struggles and let them know, not only are they not alone but that their voice matters and I can help them write their story. You have every right to be you just as anyone else. I am making a promise to myself that now is when I am stepping into my purpose.
Here are three ways that I am making sure I make it happen:
Prayer
Prayer is meditative. It allows you to clear your mind and release all of your worries and desires while reflecting on the good that has already come. It helps to feel that you have someone in your corner, always.
Making time
I had to make a promise to myself to stop using the excuse of “not having enough time” to keep me from doing the things I needed to do. I compromised by starting small. I committed to spending at least 15 minutes before bed on working towards my goal and business.
Journaling
Brain dumping at night is a necessity for me. By letting my pen float freely on the page, I have been able to manage indecisiveness, anxiety from feeling unaccomplished, and expressing my deepest inner thoughts so they no longer felt trapped inside of my head.
Journaling has been one of the most effective approaches I have taken. So much so, that I created a 14-day journal to help ease some anxiety triggers I know all too well. You can actually grab that one for yourself—for free! The “14 Days to Not So Anxious” Journal provides 14 days worth of writing prompts centered around anxiety reduction, a 30-day mood tracker, and inspiring quotes to keep you motivated to do your best each day.
I have so much in store for the TJL and I am so excited you’re here. We’re in this together, fighting alongside each other to make it known just who we are.